Fluttering wings....

5:44pm: There's a pretty big chance I'll be making my own move to a non-furry related journal mostly about my life/pets/artwork.

I'm not wholly happy being furry anymore.. There are a lot of reasons for this but it's just becoming downright exhausting. Chances are I'll be moving over there in a month or so, so this is just a chance for those who wanna add me to do so before I make the move.

There will be a few who this won't apply to, Tristan, Chris, Pehr, Pia, Kenshi I'm more comfortable behaving 'furry' around you than most, so I'm not going to completely change my behaviour, my journal will just be mostly the same but with a different focus and sans the wagging etc. I might also be rehauling my own webpage to hold simply realistic artwork and photos and just give the furry stuff away, so feel free to save anything you want.

Here's the new journal:

http://beckiheywood.livejournal.com/

7:14pm: First pictures!

http://www.furlife.dk/angel/v/Kitties/

Both Princess and Celeste ^^

7:26pm: Opinions please!
So, me and Chris got thinking about surnames and who keeps theirs and well.. We couldn't decide so, we decided to take a poll ^_^

1) Balzan

2) Heywood

3) sod both and change both to Silvine by deedpoll

8:46pm: I think I'll get married on the 15th June, 2010.

Anyone wanna come?

8:51am: When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door
And you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breathe again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

8:49pm: Debate.
Had this on one of my forums, and it's been in the news a lot lately so want to hear people's opinions and thoughts.

Animal testing. Right or wrong? Are there ever exceptions?

Discuss.

9:15pm: Borrowed from Calydor ^^
1. Tell me something obvious about you.
2. Tell me something about you that many don't know.
3. What is your biggest fear?
4. Do you normally go the safe route or take the short cut?
5. Name one thing you want that you can't buy with money.
6. What is your most treasured possession?
7. What is the one thing you hate most about yourself that you do often?
8. Tell me something sexually about you that I don't know.
9. Tell me something sexually about you that everyone knows.
10. What is your favorite lie to tell?
11. Name something you've done once that you can't wait to do again.
12. Are you the jealous type?
13. What is the one person, place or thing you can't say no to?
14. What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you?
15. If you could do something crazy right now, what would it be?
16. When was the last time you cried?
17. When was the last time you felt so good that nothing else mattered?
18. Do you feel comfortable in public with no shirt on?
19. Name something embarrassing you did while being drunk.
20. If you post this in your journal would you like me to shenanigan it?

12:02pm: Okies, sooo.. 10 things beginning with R..

Well the most obvious first..

R is for Rebecca, which of course is my first name

R is for romance, I'm a bit of a softy when it comes to romance..

R is for roses, one of my favourite flowers

R is for rabbits, hope to have some of my own eventually, used to have a white one called Snowflake

R is for rollercoasters, I've always loved adventure and thrill rides, rollercoasters were the first ride that eventually led me to parachuting and bungee-jumping

R is for respect - one thing I value very highly

R is for red fox, the species my mate identifies with

R is for rosellas, a bird species that have more meaning to me than I can say

R is for ruby, a stone long associated with love, my nana gave me a ring set with rubies

R is for rainbows, childish as it may be, I still love them ^^

Okies, so now I'm done, if anyone wants a letter from me to do this in their journal, then leave a comment ^^

3:40pm: I've been thinking..
Yep. Dangerous past-time I know =P

If.. -if- I did commissions.. would anyone be interested? I can't remember if I asked this before or not.. s'just, I want to start helping out with a couple of close-to-heart charities, and was thinking what I could do.. and one idea was to do commisions, most likely non-anthro, with some anthro thrown in (if there was enough demand for that), maybe pets or y'know.. whatever you fancied animal-wise. Any iterest? Thoughts? Ideas? Imput?

Also.. I need to make a move on this whole job thing I keep spluttering about.. Have decided I need a job that involves working with animals. Whatever job I get I won't be earning anymore than I am now and there'll be less hours. So if I need to take a wage cut it's certainly not going to be so I can get a job I hate. So! I need to start looking.. I'll keep anyone interested updated.

That's it really =P

Take care everyone!

9:41am: Collection details
Thanks loads everyone who commented in my journal yesterday, well I asked for more details and got an email back


Hi Beki,
I live in Bradford just off the a650 shipley. If you know when you are coming give me a call on xxxxxxxxxxx and Ill give you more details. If there is no answer please leave a mesage and ill get back to you .Im often down in the chin room and miss calls. Let me know how long you think it will be.
thanks alot
Donna x

So last appeal, anyone know any details on whereabouts this is?


EDIT: Woah.. Just looked that up on Multimap.. that's a -huge- distance away o.o s'gotta be more than 50 miles at least.

9:13am: Is 'west yorkshire' a small area or a large region? Anyone know where I can go to work out the distance between it and Mansfield? (my home) I can get a rough idea on multimap but can't judge distance for the life of me.. Need to go up soon to collect a pair of chinchillas I have on reserve and I just don't even know whereabouts I might be heading! I know it's north of us and that's about it.. I thought Nottingham was in Yorkshire anyway?

12:06pm: Mushy post - just as warning
Lately things seem to be getting steadily deeper and stronger between me and my fox, bonds strengthening, a few issues between us resolving.. Generally speaking it just seems the longer we're together, the more we're around eachother, the more I realize just what I was missing before him.

Don't get me wrong I have a deep affection for many of my ex-partners, am friends with 2 of them in fact, despite it not being a mutual break-up. But none of them made me feel.. Quite so secure, so sure of things being right and in balance. It's kinda like spending your entire life looking at a crooked painting and then someone straightens it for you. I'm sure everyone who has experienced love knows what I mean, even if my words are inelegantly expressed.

I feel like.. He completes me. I have no-one else who I trust so much, who I talk to so freely and continually, I feel no-one understands my moods so well, or how to deal with them, no-one makes me feel as welcome or as glad to be home and no-one makes me feel so loved and wanted and appreciated.. He makes me grateful to be alive because my life is with him..

He accepts me, in all my imperfections and idiocrasities. He doesn't use them against me and is gentle in pointing them out. He respects me in all ways and treats me with dignity, both of us prefering a mateship of equality and mutual appreciation of eachother.

We tr6 to not indulge in jealousy, nor in pettiness. We don't hold grudges, or save old arguments and hotly spoken words to use as weapons in another argument, we try not to fight, or squabble and when things are unbearable we turn to eachother first and talk them thoroughly, sometimes tearfully, sometimes stoically through and try to reach a mutual decision rather than back biting or bitching and we never put off having the really serious talks.

I guess.. All I'm really trying to say is.. I'm very very lucky.. and I appreciate that fact.. and I love my mate.. And I look forward to the day I marry him and swear to be his forever. He's an incredible mate and I think the world of him.. I just hope he thinks I'm good enough for him too ^^;;